Growing Up

Friends come and go, I know this. It's part of growing up, along with so many other things. Unfortunately, that doesn't make it any easier when you suddenly realize that you've lost most of the friends you once held dear.

I suppose it's just part of moving away, going after your dreams, but for some reason I always thought my friends would support me and stay in touch as I went after what I wanted in life. I guess I was wrong. Now I'm here wondering who I can really count on to be there for me.

I'm not someone who needs a ton of friends, in fact I really hardly have any, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't like to know some people have my back. I'm the kind of person who will always be a listening ear, a helping hand, a shoulder to cry on, I don't care how well I know you, what the circumstances are, or what time it is. If someone needs me, I'll try my absolute hardest to be there for them, whether it's over the phone, through a video chat, or in person. The only bad part is that I rarely get the same thing in return.

I know it's petty and I shouldn't really care, but it still hurts. It makes me feel like I'm a kid again, trying to fit in with the cool kids and clearly failing, only to have them make fun of me and snicker at me as I pass them in the hallway. Will I always feel that way?

Yes, I'm comfortable with who I am as a person. Yes, I'm honest with myself about what I want to do and what I need to do. Too bad that's not enough. For now I suppose I'll just rely on the few friends I have (mostly family) until I can figure out who is real and who's only friends with me when they need something.

Keep in mind, this blog is not to bash anyone and it's really not a cry for help, I just needed to express this confusion. What am I doing with my life?

Does anyone really know what's going on or are we all just struggling through this jungle we call life and growing up?

Two Videos for the Price of One!

So life's been a little crazy lately. Finals are coming up, my phone hates me, my car hates me, and my bike is broken... Buuuuuuut, that won't stop me from delivering so here we are. Two videos uploaded in the same day to make up for last week's lack of video. Enjoy! 

The Adventure Vlog! [Winona Edition]

How Boys Try to Impress Girls!

Have a fantastic day!

Being an Adult Scares Me [Video]

All of my thoughts and confusion at growing into adulthood and what that really means...